Purpose of LIFE???

Boys and Girls I am struggling as bad as I have ever struggled right now with life. I have a month of FNF fishing at Dale Hollow, my favorite way to fish on my favorite lake for my favorite species of fish, and it turns into 2 days of fishing, a helicopter ride to UK Hospital and emergency surgery. I got to spend 90 minutes on Barkley Lake back in April before my health ran me off the water and now this. What is the purpose of all this that happens to people? 500 days in the hospital, 27 surgeries and I am no better to a normal life today than I was January 29, 2007 when all this started when I busted a hernia with a sneeze. Sick and tired of being sick and tired, bandages, wound vacs, hospitals, doctors, nurses, needles, operations, can't bend over, can't lift more than 10 pounds, can't play with my son, can't lay in the bed to sleep, my recliner has become my best friend and that stinks. About as low as I have been and don't see no end in sight. Best surgeons in Kentucky working on me, considered other Hospitals but in talking to them they can't do much more than is already done, Mayo clinic does not take my insurance and wants me to pay as I go, considering I owe $83,000 in medical bills as it is WITH insurance and my medicare as a backup for my disability how much would Mayo Clinic be? What does a guy have to do to want to live a normal life? How many times does he have to be kicked in the stomach before he gets better or gives up? The only reason that I have not given up is my wife, son and 2 daughters and even that drive and determinations is getting smaller. Have been disappointed so many times on fishing trips because of my health that I am considering getting rid of every single piece of fishing related item in my garage just so I am not disappointed again. Life pretty much stinks and I have no clue as to what it is going to bring next. I am done now and getting off my soapbox.


PLEASE DON'T RESPOND TO THIS POST. I JUST WANTED TO VENT AND AM NOT LOOKING FOR ANY SYMPATHY POST OR ANYTHING. NOBODY CAN SAY THEY UNDERSTAND WHAT I AM GOING THRU AND I DON'T EXPECT ANYONE TO SAY ANYTHING TO MAKE ME THINK THEY DO. AGAIN PLEASE DON'T RESPOND TO THIS POST BECAUSE I ONLY WANTED TO VENT.

No, I do not have a clue, what you are going through. Have watched you on occasion struggle, but that burden hasn't trod on my shoulders. Doesn't keep any of us from worrying. Human Nature.....I guess. You are a man with a strong mind and a big heart. You can't deny that.
The advise you gave me on my situation,,I TOOK. Between you, my Christian Hispanic man, and the good Lord, I managed to stand in a court room, listen to some shyster attorney degrade me like to other human being has ever done with out getting a good cussing or an over hand left(South Paw). I took it like a man. I guess the judge watched my reaction the whole time and after a certain amount of time she spoke up and took my side.
ROUGH! as it was...I won!

I, for one, wish there was something I could do to help you through this rough time. I know I can't, but it doesn't keep me or anyone else, from wanting too...

Your sorry arse grows on us. We love you like our own kin. And I don't think there's anything you can say that will ever change that.

Talk to you in a couple of days. I need to give you an update on my deal and see what I can expect next...

Billy