Quote Originally Posted by wishniwasfishn View Post
Splitshot, I am in the same boat as you, I go back and forth between believing, and then thinking an asteroid hit this earth billions of years ago, and life sprung from that, and we have evolved to what we are now. I still pray, I still try to live my life in a way that if there is a god, I am hopeful to be judged good enough to enter the pearly gates, I look at the ten commandments as rules to live by.....sometimes, I can almost feel the lord inside of me, and then sometimes, when I see children dying of cancer, or being raped and killed, I wonder if there was a god, would he allow this to happen, I was told one time by a Baptist preacher that without suffering there would be no compassion.....I just don't buy that. I do know that something happened to my wife and I that I cannot explain, other than it was the good lord protecting us....I was driving down bardstown road towards mt. Washington, doing about 65 miles an hour, and the light turned red, I was cruising pretty good, and had to hit the brakes really hard to stop, and for some reason, and to this day my wife and I cannot figure it out, I swerved in the other lane, never looked back, never looked over, just for some reason, I abruptly switched lanes, and as soon as I stopped a dollar store semi went by me doing about 80, if I would of not gotten over, I know we would of both been dead, he had nowhere else to go except the back end of my vehicle. I swear to this day, I never looked back, I didn't know he was there, and I still don't know why I switched lanes, other than someone up there didn't want me dead yet, and made me switch lanes, its just something I would ever do, espically without looking over to see if there was a car in the other lane, but I did it, and I am alive today because of it.....
I have a few stories that I can't explain and every one of them was after a loved one died. Do loved ones come back after they die to say things are ok? Well I believe it but others have said I was just so emotional and my subconscious made me see things...not sure but I'll go with I talked to my dad after he died because it felt real and I sure felt better after the visit.

i have been cursed with terrible nightmares of feeling something evil is on or around me my whole life while sleeping. I talked with my pastor (at the time) and he explained it was a spiritual war over my soul....well since I was ready to stop those dreams or events I followed his advice and he added me to his prayer group and of course I prayed myself and they would pretty much stop. Now if I go for a week or two and don't pray, seek God or just sit and read from the bible I start getting those feelings at night again. I'm a believer of God which means there is a Devil so again I go with what my Pastor said and I have been a part of several small groups, men's groups men's BSF (bible study fellowship) at church (when I would go regularly) and we would talk and I wasn't the only one who dealt with this...it was nice to hear others explain what was going on with them and how they dealt with it.

I can see if someone who either doesn't believe or on the fence about God hears things like this they can shake their head and just write it off as bull or whatever and quite honestly that's how I was until things started changing for me 20 years ago when I confronted some of these "demons".