Elwood,
I have been there, I have questioned. I lost three great people to cancer, why did God have to take them? I always question that. Faith comes into play then, although we may lose it at times, it usually comes back in some shape or form.

I was raised as a devout Catholic, 13 years going to private catholic schools. From early on I thought there was no other choice, so I did it as I was taught. Now highschool years came, had a great thologian teacher who taught his class in a different way. I started to question the Catholic religion and really stopped going to Church the time when my grandfather was found murdered. I went into the rebellious stage and lost sight for a while (never turning my back on God, just losing sight of my own faith). Does going to Church make a person good? To me no, one of the people I lost to cancer was the greatest man alive but he was not a church goer, but I swear he was an angel on earth.

But I am guessing you are an outdoorsman, as I am. Take a look around you when your out on the water, the beauty, the wildlife, your chance of living that moment, never take that for granted, you are in one of God's greatest cathedrals. Anytime I ever thought if there was someone above, I always looked at my surroundings and realized there has to be a greater authority who created the beautiful surroundings I enjoy and partake in. The outdoors has been my "church" for the past few years, where I do all my talking to the man above. Whether it is before launch in a tournament, or I am posted high in a tree waiting for a mossy antlered to walk out, I do a lot of talking to him as well as those he has chosen to take.

Time is what it will take, there is no easy way in the situation your family is currently in. All I say is, this is the time when you need God the most. He is there, he will help you through your times of suffering. Cancer is one of the most horrible things that disease the world today, and too many good people leave us before there time. I will pray for you and your family through this most difficult time. God bless and vent all you want, not to sound like a Dr. Phil, but talking about it and venting what you feel will only help you through your rough times.

Eric Hickman Jr.