Elwood,
If you offended anyone, it's their problem, not yours. No one, especially not a Christian, should ever be offended when someone speaks from their heart, as you obviously have.
At the core of it all is this--we are born separated from God. In our "natural" form, we are incomplete, ineffective and yes, wicked. By our own choosing, we live now in an imperfect world full of grief and pain and eventually death.
He offered us paradise on Earth, but we rejected that when free will and our pride got the better of us. The pain you're feeling, and the pain we all feel when those we love are hurting, all of that stems from that choice and the resulting separation between us and God.
The answer isn't to increase that separation--it's to bridge it. Don't curse God--ask Him for help. Help for your bro-in-law, his family, for you to be there for them and comfort them. It's hard for us to deal with sometimes, but God has three answers to prayer: "yes", "no", and "not right now".
And let me say this--it's okay to be angry at God. You're in some pretty good company when you are. The Psalmist himself said in 10:1--"Why, O Lord, do you stand afar off? Why do you hide yourself in times of trouble?"
I believe God would rather have you angry at Him--and talking to Him--than trying to ignore Him, or even worse, *pretending* to love Him.
Take it up with God. He offers you and your loved ones hope, and the peace that surpasses all understanding.
John



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