As insensitive as this may sound at first, please remember that we are put here to Glorify God. Not the other way around. If we look for God to save us from reality, then we are looking to him for our benefit, and not his. We need to remember that life is as hollow as you make it sound if there is no other purpose for us here than to eat, sleep, and die. Praise him in the best and toughest of times.

God tests us through our success and failure. We should always try to glorify him even when it seems senseless to do so. That is where faith comes in.

Elnut, I believe that if you sincerely pray to Him, you will get it. I will pray for you and your family through this tough time.

Bill