BigPoppy,
First of all, it's great to have you back on the board. Secondly don't look too hard into what other plans the Lord has for you, you may go through them without him letting you know. That's his way and his will. Also, never feel embarrassed to find out how people feel about you, another blessing well desrved. Always live life to the fullest, enjoy each moment as you recieve it, and always know the blessings you recieve are truly yours and deserved.
Prayers sent up for your full recovery.