I am new here and don't know you but I know your pain. I was on a whole lot of pain meds for a little over a year. I was on diladid for about 4 months of that. I was taking 6 MG's every 3 hours. Today probably is the peak for you. You were on them for a while so, honestly, you still have a way to go. The depression will last probably close to a month. It lasted about 3 months for me. If you take something today it will actually help. They should have weened you. That's terrible they took you off cold turkey. A quick prayer from me for you. Hang in there! Don't think about suicide! It gets better!