Then you know that feeling stratos, what have I got to live for? We know it passes. My first wife and I were married for almost 28 yrs, both kids in school, going for college degrees, we were empty nesters. I remember telling her we could now start enjoying our life togeter. she had a fatal heart attack soon after. Man we went through some rocky times, job lay offs, being broke, and a bad drinking problem. WE came through all of that was not trhe end I envisioned.The second one was a fluke. My second date with her the first was just coffee and talk. We rented a couple of videos we both liked, and settled to watch them. My dog jumped into her lap, that was my first wifes dog by the way. All was going well. and suddenly the dog bit her, not real bad, but I could tell it was painfull. I asked if she needed medical attention, cause I'd take care of all the bills, she said no, but she wanted to go home.The next day I called my insurance agent and told him what happened.You know what he said? " marry her". She called the next day, and said a steak dinner, would sooth her ruffled feathers. As we talked that evening, we found we had so many things in common it was scary. I did marry her and loved her very much. BUT I kept having this thought, what the heck do I tell Them if I get to heaven. Our parish priest told me one thing that helped out, it was Gods plan, he has it worked out.