God doesn't put bad things on His children. I, personally, believe it is wrong to blame God for the bad things that happen to us. Even things such as tornadoes, hurricanes, and floods are classified as "an act of God" when they are acts of nature.

If people say that God puts bad things on us, who do they credit with giving them good things? Evil and good cannot dwell together in God; He is either all evil or all good...Satan is the evil one and God is the one who is good.

Elnut, I know you are tired and weary from all that you have gone through but you are still waking up every morning seeing the faces of a precious child and a loving wife. Isn't that better than that them waking up without you and soaking your grave with their tears?