This is no consolation, but all you've been through has made you the person you are. Do anything for anybody, compassionate, caring, and just an all around great person to be around (not to mention more laughs than YouTube). Don't quit the fight. There will be more Billy's for you to win. More Decembers for us to fish. More 5#'ers to land (don't worry we'll throw 'em back). Hang in there.....