500 days in the hospital, 27 surgeries, 2 weeks ago on Dec 3 I was in the middle of my 3rd day prefishing so that Catchemall and I could defend our Horse Creek Marina Billy Westmoreland Invitational Title and after putting 22 in the boat on Thursday and then found some bigger fish Friday morning the hopes were high. 11am and I am off the water with major pain in my left side of my abdominal area, sat at the cabin for an hour debating as to what the heck it was but it just kept swelling, down to Celina Hospital and less than a couple hours later I am being air vac lifted out on a helicopter ride to UK Hospital for Emergency Surgery due to a major absess in my abdomin. Arrive at UK, sent to the ER for a few minutes, kissed the wife and son, then off to surgery. Massive abssess that had almost a gallon of infected stuff came out when he cut me open. 8 days in the hospital and now I have been home for 9. Big change from what was planned since my buddy has a cabin rented all month long and I plan on fishing every day of the month except for the 25th and 26th, plus going to take my 7 yr old son and wife out for their first FNF morning on the 23rd and 24th for a few hours to fish THE HONEY HOLE, THE HONEY HOLE THAT WON THE BILLY LAST YEAR, THE HONEY HOLE THAT GIVES THEM UP EVERY SINGLE MORNING - just ask anyone that has fished with me. I could not wait to see my boy in hand to hand combat with a 10' All Pro FNF rod with a 5lb Brownfish on the other end and let him battle it all by himself to see what he's got. Planning this month for a couple of months. Took clothing, food, pots, pans, towels basically you name it took a LOAD down on the 1st to last the whole month for I did not plan on coming home except for 2 days.......BUT MY BODY LET ME DOWN AGAIN......

Now I am sitting here in the house in my best friend, my recliner, watching the TV staying up all night sleeping all day, taking harsh antibiotics to try and keep the pseudomoneous and MRSA under control. Literally had the shades closed and never looked outside since last week after I came home from the 8 day hospital stay. Today I at least opened the curtains, did 3 loads of laundry, cooked a pot of soup beans and made some cornbread for supper, ran the sweeper, folded 3 loads of clothes and put them away. Most I have done in a while and putting up a stand against the depression that I am in. I have decided that I am not in a depressive state anymore but need some help.

Any help with helping me get out of my depressive state is most appreciated?