Glen, I think I know what you're saying. I watched two wives die, at home, with incurable illnesses. My current mate[were not married]is also in the same predicament. I cared for my mother who developed alziemers, and died. We get to the age where we accept death,it is a part of living.I wish there was some way to let you know that you are not the only person who this happens to.Right now I'm waiting for a call from my doctor, which may be the final notice, but if this one isn't another one will come along. Make peace with the lord, be thankfull for the time he has given you and your's. My brother is the victim of an auto accident, he is almost always in pain, we talk, and its not so much about future plans anymore, just about the good days we had.