Quote Originally Posted by DJD View Post
No offense taken.....im just telling it like i see it, becoming a christian is a personal choice and when your ready you will find it was a good choice. Funny thing is you sound like me many years ago. Looking for reasons not to believe and trying your best to understand something this difficult. It's cool and we all go through it. There are many things to gain by going to a good church that has small groups or men's groups. You get to ask the kind of questions your asking and hopefully talk to some folks who have dedicated their lives to teaching and preaching the word of God.
It really is helpful to talk to a Good Pastor or leader of a church who understands where your coming from. They can answer these questions and concerns much better than me and I'm not so well versed in the bible as to have many of the answers. I will say this....not all folks who are in positions of leadership at churches are great teachers. It's like any other profession, job or leader....some are better than others.
I dont think I'm looking for a reason not to beleive. I think I'm looking for a reason to beleive. And I agree with what you say that it is very difficult. I would say that is the reason I have doubts. I also am not versed in the Bible so I don't even try to understand it. I will say this. My Grandfather who died long before I was born could not read or write but according to my Mother he could quote the Bible. Was he able to do so just because of things he heard or was there something else. I have no reason to doubt my Mother and I see no reason for her to lie about it. Knowing this is what still has me at least partly beleiving that there is something else out there but I still have doubt. I have another question and maybe it is addressed in the Bible. Who created God? Did he just magically appear? If He created the Heavens and the earth where did he come before?