Nothing matters. Not UK, Not Louisville, Not fishing , NOT A **** THING!!!!

Been here at UK Hospital since 6pm last night with an Abcess the size of your fist on my left abdominal area. Exact same place the Abcess appeared in Dec 2010 that forced me airlifted out of Celina TN and not let John and myself defend our Billy Westmoreland Title. Funny thing is John and I was to leave Wed morning for 5 days at Ky and Barkley. Not now. I get to spend quality time with my surgeon for surgery #31 and miss a trip I been looking forward to for months. I didn't want to go fishing anyways.

I am so pissed right now that I can't see straight. To HELL with it all. I don't want any prayers because prayer is nothing but a huge azz waste of time. There is no God, there is no Devil, there is no Heaven and there is no Hell. You live, die, put in box and that's that. I am sick and tired of trying to do right, be a good husband, good father and grandfather. Sick and tired of the 4 freakin walls at UK Hospital. Doctors nurses surgeons needles and bullcrap. I for one will be glad when its over. Let somebody else deal with what I deal with on a daily basis. Anybody else would have slit their wrist, while tied to a train track covered in gasoline and striking a match. Plain and simple LIFE ***** and I am tired of it.

FOR SALE: ALL FISHING EQUIPTMENT, BOAT AND EVERYTHING. GET SCREWED OUT OF FISHING DUE TO HEALTH SO MIGHT AS WELL GET RID OF IT ALL!!!!