Aftedr calling for an ambulance, and waiting in the ER till three this AM, You start to wonder "why me". I've gone through the agony of watching three women I loved die. Two wives and a mother. I've been going through the same torture the past two years and know I'm watching the prospect of another one I care for die.I am not afraid of the hereafter, just hope its quick and painless as it could be, I dread being a burden for my children. I don't want to outlive anyone else. The thought comes to mind "what could I have done to prevent this". God has been very good to me,I've faced death three times, and he has spared me,makes wonder if its punishment for a forgotten egrigious sin, or an example of a modern Job. But what ever, "his will be done on earth as it is in heaven". Guess I'll need to wait till judgement day to find out.Maybe its a curse, I want to live to see the cubbies in a world series,is he granting that prayer to me? Find out later. You younger guys, count your blessings,and give thanks for them.