Quote Originally Posted by kygorski View Post
Aftedr calling for an ambulance, and waiting in the ER till three this AM, You start to wonder "why me". I've gone through the agony of watching three women I loved die. Two wives and a mother. I've been going through the same torture the past two years and know I'm watching the prospect of another one I care for die.I am not afraid of the hereafter, just hope its quick and painless as it could be, I dread being a burden for my children. I don't want to outlive anyone else. The thought comes to mind "what could I have done to prevent this". God has been very good to me,I've faced death three times, and he has spared me,makes wonder if its punishment for a forgotten egrigious sin, or an example of a modern Job. But what ever, "his will be done on earth as it is in heaven". Guess I'll need to wait till judgement day to find out.Maybe its a curse, I want to live to see the cubbies in a world series,is he granting that prayer to me? Find out later. You younger guys, count your blessings,and give thanks for them.
God always is control, is wise beyond our comprehension, and has His reasons. Maybe He knew that you were the right man that was able to both show each of those women the love they deserved, and at the same time was strong enough to handle the loss. I imagine you are Gods gift to them, and they were/are all better off for it.